9.26.2012
Happy Birthday Mom… I miss you so much!!!
Today would have been my mother‘s 86th birthday and there isn’t one day that goes by that I don’t think of her and wish I could call and here her voice.
Even though she has been gone a few years I still have a heavy heart when I realize I will never be hugged by her again, or get to share my day with her. So I blog… and maybe someone else gets a little joy out my shares.
She taught me my love for music, and no matter how long I was away, she always loved me unconditionally. I am glad that I was able to develop our relationship and make my amends to her for being an absentee daughter during my “journey of self discovery“. I blamed her for a lot of my own spiritual and emotional shortcomings growing up… and found out it all began with me! I learned how to take responsibility for some bad choices that I made, and to face my addictions and I am recovered today. Almost 30 years of recovery has given me the most amazing life I could have ever imagined. I found me, I found God, I found a fellowship that helped me put my life together, on step at a time. I found women who helped me strip away the inauthentic self I was drowning in. I found women who handed me the “tools of recovery” to recapture the child within, who was waiting for me to find her.
I am Happy, Healthy and In Love with my life today because of the journey that led me here. I am grateful for every day and most grateful that I got to have a love affair with my mom in the last 20 years of her life.
I am blessed to have been raised by her. She had the biggest heart in the world, and I am, and always be my mothers daughter…
Thank you God for giving her to me as my mom… you did real good!!!!
Margaret (mom) in Seattle, Washington
Thank you for your profound and insightful post….
I really miss her and thanks so much
Wishes her a happy birthday … and thinks in my head she might hear it.
*hugs* …tis hard when one’s mum is gone off … but I know by the way you speak of her, how proud you are of her … and there is no doubt in my mind, that she had the same feelings of you.
Yes, we were very close at the end, thanks for your loving thoughts, it means a lot to me. xo