A daily meditation posted by my husband, Way Spiritual Dave that I thought I might share for those who can relate, like me… the last quote by WSD, is his…
- Thank the person/people who nominated you and link back to them in your post.
– Share seven possibly unknown things about yourself.
– Nominate fifteen or so bloggers you admire.
– Contact the chosen bloggers to let them know and link back to them.
Seven unknown facts about me:
2. My life changed for the better because of the 12 Steps.
3. I was the highest ranking female bodyguard to become certified in the early 1980′s at the Academy, but I chose not to pursue the career because I couldn’t kill anyone to save my client.
4. I am a Filipino/American who is 1/4 Polish .
5. In high school I was nominated “Miss Polly Posture” by the school faculty.
6. It was my husband who first coined my life quote of being “Happy, Healthy and In Love.
7. I have only been blogging on WordPress for 4 and 1/2 weeks.
Nominations for a few of the people I admire… and this was tough, but just a start:
Okay, this week has been one I won’t forget… I had major dental surgery last Thursday and have been in pain most of the week. So, being home bound and resting I spent more time than usual here on my blog. This was the comfort i received with the eye candy of your posts to take my mind off the discomfort I had been experiencing.
While I was recuperating, and I still am, but much less pain at this point, I decided life is too short and what is my big fear with photography? Learning how to use my equipment properly and not practicing enough to learn! There, I said it out loud.
Today I faced my fears and stepped outside of my four walls into the front yard and just started snapping… same trees, same neighborhood, same environment, different camera!
I feel good to have slipped into my big girl panties and they actually feel pretty good.
I just posted most of the pictures I took outside today, just to prove to myself that it is pretty hard to mess up… even blurry pictures sometimes tell a story.
I decided to take the plunge, one day at a time so I can post to the Weekly Challenge this week. (Gulp!)
Pray for me…
Sounds like such a small deal, but believe me… it will be one giant step for woman kind. (This kind woman)
Phew! Feels better saying it out loud… in the open, not a secret any more…
Thanks for listening.
For years, actually decades I have learned to trust that still small voice within. I know it is my God whispering in my ear. I don’t need God to shout at me very often, whispering is enough. But that was not the way it was for the first almost four decades of my life. My addictions to just about everything that would allow my to “numb” my feelings had a hold of my spirit and would not let go! My God was suffering from a case of laryngitis from screaming at me… in vain! The road from there to here has been a long and winding road… lots of hills and valleys that I had trudged, with love and support from my life coaches. I became willing to learn, take direction, work HARD and swallow my pride and ego. Reflection comes easy to those of us who don’t need to deny our pasts, for it is the grace that we get to pass on… So reflect I will… And for now the little voice is purrrrrring…. contented, happy, joyous and free! as I “remember to breathe…” I am breathing in and out the life of God and remembering God Is My Only Source.
O.k., o.k., I chose blog, but that doesn’t make me a bad person… it just readjusts my schedule a wee bit!
I am responsible for my choices today, can’t blame you, them, my family, my pet, it is all mine.
Once I realized that my life became much simpler.
Chuck C. used to say:
“Uncover, discover and discard”
I had to do some serious writing to uncover the patterns that kept me trapped in a miserable life,
I got to discover who I was underneath the tangled web of deceit I had woven with my lies and denial…
And when these defects of character rose to the surface, with the help of my sponsor and mentor, I got to discard them, one at a time, over the years like smelly socks that I hid in the back of my closet.
Every once and a while I dig one back out of the trash… like procrastination… and embrace it until the stench makes me wretch and I throw it away again.
My choices are my choices today, and I accept the consequences, and move on.
It feels good not to be stuck in the “sea of denial”. I was drowning in that sea for over 37 years. Glub! Glub!
I think I can pay my bills now… my head just got a bit clearer.
I am smilin on the inside… and it feels good!!!!
If it looks like I am the only person on the dance floor it is an illusion, there is one young girl who has the same bug I do. We danced and twirled to the dj a few weeks ago as other adults stood in the shadows, at the door and at their tables wondering who this grown senior citizen was gettin down like there was no tomorrow.
I don’t give a hoot…
I finally realize that I am able to dance as if no one is watching.
If you don’t know how many steps it took to get in my shoes, feeling unafraid… it took decades!
If you do know how many steps it took, you are either a really healthy person or you are in a 12 step program like me and have done lots of work on yourself.
Either way… we are truly blessed to be free.
Gotta go, hear my favorite song!!!!
I like me
I like who I have become
I am grateful I was awoken into the reality I created…
I did have to change how I related to me and you
I can now accept today I have choices…
I am a whole new person,
I try to treat you with dignity and respect
because I love myself today…
And for that I am grateful
to accept the things I cannot change…
the courage to change the things I can
And the wisdom to know the difference.
Thy will not mine be done!
And here I go…
I am living my life according to the grand scheme designed by a magnificent being that I choose to call God.
I tried doing it my way and it didn’t work… I like His way much better!
Anyone else feel the same way?
That God knows His business????
I would love to hear…