Happy Birthday Mom… I miss you so much!!!
Today would have been my mother‘s 86th birthday and there isn’t one day that goes by that I don’t think of her and wish I could call and here her voice.
Even though she has been gone a few years I still have a heavy heart when I realize I will never be hugged by her again, or get to share my day with her. So I blog… and maybe someone else gets a little joy out my shares.
She taught me my love for music, and no matter how long I was away, she always loved me unconditionally. I am glad that I was able to develop our relationship and make my amends to her for being an absentee daughter during my “journey of self discovery“. I blamed her for a lot of my own spiritual and emotional shortcomings growing up… and found out it all began with me! I learned how to take responsibility for some bad choices that I made, and to face my addictions and I am recovered today. Almost 30 years of recovery has given me the most amazing life I could have ever imagined. I found me, I found God, I found a fellowship that helped me put my life together, on step at a time. I found women who helped me strip away the inauthentic self I was drowning in. I found women who handed me the “tools of recovery” to recapture the child within, who was waiting for me to find her.
I am Happy, Healthy and In Love with my life today because of the journey that led me here. I am grateful for every day and most grateful that I got to have a love affair with my mom in the last 20 years of her life.
I am blessed to have been raised by her. She had the biggest heart in the world, and I am, and always be my mothers daughter…
Thank you God for giving her to me as my mom… you did real good!!!!
Margaret (mom) in Seattle, Washington