As I look back at the past year I realize I have taken some pretty big strides toward my “bucket list”… I only call it that because everyone knows what that is.
- I vowed to pick up my camera and start taking pictures, check!
- I vowed to start posting to a blog daily to share my favorite photos, and thoughts, check!
- I vowed to be of service to others by carrying the message, check!
- I vowed to re-connect with my long lost siblings after almost 40 years, check!
- I vowed to step out of my comfort zone by setting up a family Facebook page, check!
Now here it is 2013 and I am pondering how I want to grow this year.
- I want to master the use of my camera and not count on blind ass luck
- I want to exercise more
- I want to creatively collaborate with my friend to start a new secret artistic project (we are sworn to secrecy until we choose our method)
- I want to rewrite my children’s book
That’s a good start, and as the year progresses I know my list will evolve.
For me saying out loud what my heart is feeling is the beginning of the manifestation of dreams.
Look out 2013… here I come!
“It is our choices…that show what we
truly are, far more than our abilities”
– J. K. Rowling
“If I choose to risk trying a new adventure, the first step towards doing so is victory itself” pdd
“Faith without works is dead”…unknown
The Third Step Prayer
God, I offer myself to Thee — to build with me and to do with me as Thou wilt. Relieve me of the bondage of self, that I may better do Thy will. Take away my difficulties, that victory over them may bear witness to those I would help of Thy Power, Thy Love, and Thy Way of life. May I do Thy will always!
one by one… and don’t sneeze!!!
Desert landscape (desertscape) is exciting to me. The morning sunrises are spectacular in my neighborhood. I only need to walk three steps out my front door for the most glorious lightshow’s on a daily basis.
So many fantastic role models on WordPress.com, I am growing as an amateur photographer, and my fears are subsiding as I Walk Through My Fears, each day.
Have been out of town this week so I got busy this morning and “Walked through my fears” with my little Canon T3 and my 50mm lens… just the three of us watched the sun play on the horizon and in my neighborhood… dancing light of the sunrise, magnifying the grace of God! I am really loving this path of enlightenment. Going out to see what I can see… won’t you join me? I feel like a kid in a candy store… and it has been a long time coming…
Thanks to those of you who take the time to send me a word of encouragement, it really means a lot!
This is the first group of five I took… more to come…
Ok today I did it… I actually went to Palm Desert Park and took a bunch of pictures, and had fun doing it. I saw ducks, pretty bold goose, a curious turtle and a couple of doves in a tree. I took more photos of the trip home. I actually am excited about Walking through my fears… and feeling pretty good about it. Thanks for all the supportive messages. Feels good to know I am not alone in my journey!
Yesterday was not like any other day… I stepped out of my “hula hoop”, or my comfort zone as you will. Getting out my Canon Eos and taking a dozen or so photos in my front yard, of my neighborhood. Doesn’t sound like a big deal but for me it was.
Today I am going to attempt to follow through with my goal, not a resolution, ( def.: the act of analyzing a complex notion into simpler one… ) but a goal, ( def.: the end toward which effort is directed). I like the idea of directing my effort… sounds more natural to me.
I am even going to get in my car and drive out of my big hula hoop, my neighborhood and travel to someone else’s! I am not suffering from agoraphobia (def.: abnormal fear of being helpless in an embarrassing or inescapable situation that is characterized especially by the avoidance of open or public places)… I just have had fear of picking up the dang thang (Canon Eos) that I wanted for so very long, and actually using it!
When I was a kid I wanted a pair of roller skates for my birthday and my dad got me a pair… you could not get me off those skates. I would skate in a loop in our basement over and over and over with a smile on my face. What happened between then and now? I became, and probably was, an addict/alcoholic… all or nothing but mostly all! I lived an un-authentic life, deceit, self-centeredness, ego, uncontrollable urges that were very destructive for 37 years of my life.
Then almost 30 years ago I found AA, I found a sponsor and women who helped me find God. I found a fellowship that had no rules and only one requirement… and they loved me back to life using the 12 steps. I could write about the recovery portion of my story for days, and I will later… stay tuned.
But, what I am getting at, is my need to control (Coda) has another great program that I support and supports me. If I can’t do a thing perfect, I don’t do it. Simple, yet not very authentic of me to turn my back on what my God does will might be for me.
You see, I intuitively know photography is good for me, and I am good at it, at the level I am and remain. My intuition is God whispering in my ear, by the way.
I don’t trust myself to be better at it, to be smart enough to learn about it, to retain all of the vast amount of knowledge that I have found for fun and for free these last four weeks on WordPress and in the community of giving talented people (bloggers) here.
Now I have not excuse to take the next first step, do I? Yesterday I cracked the door of willingness and took some pics outside, my next first step… go exploring and just SHOOT!
What’s that all about?
Anyone else had any experience in this area?
Photo seen on Facebook
“You can’t cross a sea by merely
staring into the water.”
– Rabindranath Tagore
For weeks I read my friends Linda and Jennifer’s blogs, admiring the insight, wisdom and grace of their postings. The photographs that captured the essence of their travels, hiking together and individually.
I wanted what they had, but had fear as to how to do it.
I have been taking photographs for over 40 years (with either film, instamatic, or point and shoot cameras), of friends, family and special occasions… got my first a Olympus digital camera and used it for vacations and birthday parties.
My second Olympus digital camera was more challenging and I only tried it off the automatic mode a few times, experimenting, too complex for me to figure out by reading the manual. Felt like I got in the rowboat and stepped off the shore… had been using it for landscape photos mostly but it was not a natural fit for me. I bought it off a photographer friend who wanted to newer Nikon, and now I know why he sold it. He is really good and is a professional and could use all the features. Last year I took a dslr class and purchased my present Canon T3. I really like the camera and want to take more classes because I love the one on one instruction, and being a visual person anyway, you show me and I seem to retain info better.
I take photos, almost daily with my little iPhone, and I am constantly looking into the heavens, that is where my attention lies. The cloud formations excite me. The light reflections, the shadows, the images that are created for seconds and then dissolve if you don’t shoot them as is, and hope for the best.
My goal is to use my dslr more and experiment with the lessons I am learning from some amazing blogs and teachers that I admire on their blogs. I have been introduced to a few of you right here on my blog by simply liking or commenting on my simple posts. I check out your portfolios and am amazed at the talent and wealth of information available to me, and us.
I am grateful for your input, and actually feel honored when I look at your sites, that you take the time to say hi, by clicking once before sailing on…
I am a tiny passenger, but I am a passenger, not staring at the water from the shore of ambivalence. The passenger list is filled with celebrities I have met and have yet to meet. Come say hi if you have a second. I would really love that.