Pay bills? Blog? Pay bills? Blog? Choices….consequences…

Choices are made in brief seconds and paid for in the time that remains.

Paolo Giordano

O.k., o.k., I chose blog, but that doesn’t make me a bad person… it just readjusts my schedule a wee bit!

I am responsible for my choices today, can’t blame you, them, my family, my pet, it is all mine.

Once I realized that my life became much simpler.

Chuck C. used to say:

“Uncover, discover and discard”

I had to do some serious writing to uncover the patterns that kept me trapped in a miserable life,

I got to discover who I was underneath the tangled web of deceit I had woven with my lies and denial…

And when these defects of character rose to the surface, with the help of my sponsor and mentor, I got to discard them, one at a time, over the years like smelly socks that I hid in the back of my closet.

Every once and a while I dig one back out of the trash… like procrastination… and embrace it until the stench makes me wretch and I throw it away again.

My choices are my choices today, and I accept the consequences, and move on.

It feels good not to be stuck in the “sea of denial”.  I was drowning in that sea for over 37 years. Glub! Glub!

I think I can pay my bills now… my head just got a bit clearer.

I am smilin on the inside… and it feels good!!!!

I have danced since I could walk… I can’t help it!

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If it looks like I am the only person on the dance floor it is an illusion, there is one young girl who has the same bug I do.  We danced and twirled to the dj a few weeks ago as other adults stood in the shadows, at the door and at their tables wondering who this grown senior citizen was gettin down like there was no tomorrow.

I don’t give a hoot…

I finally realize that I am able to dance as if no one is watching.

If you don’t know how many steps it took to get in my shoes, feeling unafraid… it took decades!

If you do know how many steps it took, you are either a really healthy person or you are in a 12 step program like me and have done lots of work on yourself.

Either way… we are truly blessed to be free.

Gotta go, hear my favorite song!!!!